Open Eyes

Good morning all! I hope everyone enjoyed their Easter weekend! Chaytor and I had a blast! Saturday was egg hunting and 4 wheeling at Carolyn's. I am always amazed at the time and effort she puts into the egg hunt..I believe there were 2000 eggs and about 30 kids to find them. Chaytor and I love going to Carolyn's- good people and good times. I missed my girl (4 wheeler) but am back in business and plan to keep her going all Spring, Summer and Fall.

This is an old pic of Chaytor when we first got her.....the 4 wheeler that is! And yes, we ride with helmets!

Easter: This was the first Easter I actually understood! I never got the "dying for us" part. But between last weeks service, Easter service, and finishing The Shack..I get it. We had the chance to "free" him and as a human race, we didn't. We punished him. We nailed in the nails. He took our sins with him. So I thank you, Jesus, so much for all you did and do for us.

The Shack: if you haven't read this book, you need to. I started reading it and was very much skeptical because it is fiction. But once I reached the point where Mack started asking the questions and things were explained to him, it opened my eyes to a kind God. A God that wants the very best for us and we are our very best when we live through Him.

When I was a teenager, all I remember about church was rules and consequences. Now I am not blaming the church I went to ....the sermons may have not even have gone that way, but that is how I took them. I believed in a "you better do what I say or else God". A god you were suppose to fear and get on your knees and better thank him or you're going to hell god.

Not now, I love the way The Shack portrays the three entities and I've decided that is how I will view them from here on out. I know that they are with me at all times and my favorite part was when they opened Mack's eyes to how they see the world- all the color and brightness. How our colors change with each relationship we have with each loved one. They opened my eyes as well.

So thank you .....especially PCC..I never would have made it here with out you.

Brain Hughes: you spoke yesterday of "who I would be for a day if I could". I have a few comments about that.

1. Did you know that Bill Gates has a form of Autism. It's called Asperger's Syndrome. He is so focused on the technology because that is his thing...like fans are for Chaytor right now. (Feet too, but we won't get into that). Some people still say its a myth, but word in the Autism World says yes. Others like Sir Issac Newton and Einstein too.

2. I wouldn't want you to be anyone but yourself. YOU (along with some others) but still YOU are the one who has helped me make this step. Your ability to reach people like me is your gift from God. And I thank Him and you for it!!!

DATING UPDATE: or whatever you call it:

I realized (in the last few days, well weeks really) that the break up with Paul was sooo good for me. He was (or to be truthful) I was letting him hold me back on my path with God and Jesus. He doesn't follow Christ (and I'm not downing him, just letting my readers understand) and I think my insecurities with trying too hard, pulled me off my path.

Brian (not Hughes) Evans and I are sting hanging out as friends. He even popped by Easter morning after working all night (protecting the World) to watch Chaytor open his Easter basket. Oh, and thanks Brian Evans for the 1lb. solid chocolate bunny that I am soo sure Chaytor will be the one to eat it!!! Good friend, good person...