Opportunity

Good day my fellow Blog followers....

Everything has been going very well. Chaytor is doing very well. He has 2 concerts in the next week. He has been participating in a music class for autistic kids offered by the Da Capo Institute: http://www.dacapova.com/

Chaytor loves to sing! He will take any conversation and turn it into a song!!! And he actually has a nice voice....until he starts singing like "Opera Man"!!!

So all are invited to hear him and his class sing. Let me know if your interested.

Ok, reason for the post today.

I met with Beth Brawley last Tuesday at the Asiana Bistro (yummy sushi). After a great conversation, Beth put on her PCC hat and talked to me about a possible leadership position in PCC. It's not a "job", you know what I mean. And she's not even sure what I would be doing. She said she just sees possibility with me. Her daughter, Sarah, whom I teach, agrees with her...

So, I am excited and humbled and nervous all at the same time.....and we (Beth and I) don't even know what I would be doing.

So I spoke with my friend Caryn Rehme (HOPE Church and fellow co-teacher) and she thinks it could be a good opportunity for me. I am excited about it, I am!!!! Caryn thinks I have a pretty good "testimony" and that it could reach others.

So, I do need to think about it and pray on it.

It looks like I will be part time at the high school again next year and with Chaytor in kindergarten (sniff, sniff) I would have some extra time on my hands.

My concerns are: having time to be the parent Chaytor needs, his schedule with therapy and all that, my need for ME time (which I find important to stay balanced) and a big one is being held to a higher standard...

so let's explore this one: People who lead, especially in a church setting, are held to a higher standard....leaders are suppose to lead by example. Now, I am not saying I'm a hellan (is that a word, or maybe I spelled it wrong). I don't go out and get wasted, I don't start bar fights, I'm not known as the hussy of Powhatan county....but I am wide open. I speak my mind IF its something I am passionate about., in a respectable way...I am loud, I have a loud big mouth...kids and other teachers tell me they can hear me down the hall (at least I know my students can hear me in my room), etc. I do talk to my students about my life (not all of it, but a lot) and I think that connects me with my students and they see that teachers are human, too. We don't get locked up in the closet and released when the morning school bell rings.

Will I be judged more as a leader....I think the answer is yes.

I am human, I will mess up....will I be judged for my mistake, in the eyes of my church?

Will it break me down and make me feel unworthy? This is one that my Brian is concerned about. I have been working on accepting myself for who I am. But I have also been working on myself as a christian and I like the changes I've seen and felt.

Is this God's way of working through Beth to say "Hey, you're doing much better, but lets give you a little more of a push to help you get closer to me?"